Monday, January 25, 2010

Time Out For a bit O'Whining

Don't worry - I'm still jazzed on my good news, but I wouldn't be ME if i didn't complain just a tad, now would I?

The Erbatux Ugly Stick is just NOT letting go! My skin is not responding to the ointment anymore and it burns, and stings and hurts and is U-G-L-Y. I'm sick of scaring small children and geting the impolite stares from people in public.

OK, done for now.


Friday, January 15, 2010

Hey Prayer Warriors - WE DID IT!!!

March 17th, 2010 - Confirmed Liver resection surgery date. Not only is it St. Patrick's Day, it is exactly ONE day to the year that my world changed forever, the day I was officially told of my cancer.

A collective victory to be sure. My posse of prayer warriors - you've been in this fight with me since Day 1 and we are one step closer to victory. You ALL can attest to the power of prayer.
I told Lee and Katie and Desi and my parents that I wish I could have every single person that has prayed for me in one room so I can hug you all and thank you all personally for your devoted prayer. I guess all I can do to thank you is to Honor you all by continuing to fight and to figure out a way to live my life honorably with a gratitude for all the blessings I've received during this battle. I hope I don't disappoint!

So, now, for the next few weeks I must tend to the details:

Find affordable accommodations in NYC for my family
Airline reservations
Fill out FASFA forms for college aid for Colleen
File Taxes
Tackle Insurance and Hospital bills Nightmare

I bought a 20-class pass to Elmhurst Yoga Shala and plan on taking all the classes I can. I need to get my mind and body strong for this next stage of the fight. I'm not the "yoga" type - calm and centered and peaceful - but I could really use the ability to meditate and focus my mind so I don't flit and fly all over the place when I'm awake at 2 in the morning. The nightly rambling of my brain is getting annoying - I can't turn it off.

I'm soooo happy that Dr. Fong will operate on me. I'm scared, anxious, and excited. But I know I have all of you to keep me going!



Tuesday, January 12, 2010


That is what Peg was offered yesterday. She and Lee met with Dr. Fong at Sloan Kettering and he feels she is a good candidate for surgery. It is surgery that will give her the best chance at being cured so surgery it will be. The sound of Peg's voice after she left the doctors office and told us the news was positively joyful, through tears of course, but joyful.

There is more to it than just operating and magically the cancer will be gone but now she has hope and a plan which is what Peg has wanted.

My dad said he feels a miracle is in the making. Part of that miracle is our family friend, Dr. Miller. He been instrumental in getting Peggy in to Dr. Fong at Sloan Kettering. He has guided Peg through every process, explained things in lay terms, and peppered it with a little spiritual guidence.

Since Peg has gone back on chemo her hands hurt so she did not want to type today but wanted to let you know how things went. She is back home and will be planning out the course that will take her back to Sloan for surgery. Details, details, details. As soon as she is feeling up to it she'll be blogging once more in the raw, colorful, and heartfelt way that only she can.

Please keep praying for Peggy's complete recovery.


Friday, January 8, 2010

Countdown to New York

  • Biopsy slides - Check
  • Pet Scans and MRI images - Check
  • Insurance Cards and Photo IDs - Check

Lee & I leave for New York this Sunday for our appointment with Dr. Fong at Sloan Kettering.

What do I hope to get from this meeting?

Well, the ultimate goal is to have surgery on my liver to get rid of all visible signs of cancer. That - is the best hope for a cure. So, I want Dr. Fong to offer me surgery - surgery with confidence.

I want to understand what my options are and which one is the best to pursue. I want a plan of attack. I want to know what the next step is for me to fight for. I want to know where to put my energy and my focus. I want longevity. I want life. I want to be humble enough to accept God's will.