I start chemo on Monday. Same drugs, same schedule- one week = long infusion of full coctail, the next week, short infusion of Erbatux. Scan in three months. The one drug - Ironotecean, has some toxicity to liver, so Dr. Lo said she will maintain very low threshholds and numbers on bloodwork, to make sure not an issue. If so, that drug will be taken off the list.
So, halting of hair growth - it's the typical curly chemo hair.
Back to the nasty rash on my face- it's been nice having clear skin the past few weeks. I went to NY with a horrible rash and it cleared up about three weeks later.
Back to being hooked up to a pack full of chemo to lug around for 2 days.
I have mixed emotions at this moment - I am sure that I want to do this "insurance" chemo, in the hopes that any lurking cancer cells will be nuked. But I am ready to be DONE with it all. I don't want to be around sick, dying people. I don't want to be in the Cancer Hospital every day feeling sad for those who may not have it as good as I do right now.
I'm not sure where I fit in right now. It's wierd. I don't like it.