Saturday, August 29, 2009

I'm Sad Today

My hair is really really thinning now. You can see my scalp. I'm so sad. I didn't think I'd mind losing my hair as long as it's in the pursuit of Life. Well, I take it back, I DO mind. It's a visual, outward reminder of my Cancer.

I HATE YOU CANCER, from the bottom of my heart and soul I HATE YOU


  1. Just me, your Vermont praying angel ♥ I love you kiddo, and I hate cancer too! You probably don't see it in the mirror, but those of us who love you know you're beautiful no matter what hairdo you're sporting :) sending you love and healing prayers ~ Lori

  2. The only up side I have heard of in this situation is that hair comes back thicker and darker after chemo. I'm not sure if that is true in all cases, but you can hope . . . Stay strong.

  3. I found it hard to have my hair fall out slowly ... I shaved it off and felt better.

    Hang in there ... tomorrow will be better.

  4. As I have never had cancer or been in your situation, I am not going to say "dont worry about it" but Peggy, we go way back to when we were kids in Addison and hanging with our families, and one thing I remember most about you is your amazing smile and the way your face lights up when you do smile. That is what most people see when thye look at you! Besides....scarves can be oh so shiek! We are still praying for you....Laura (Cargill) Thompson and family.

  5. Shit, I hate that you’re going through this too! I want so badly for you to have something good happen, some little sliver of a break in all this madness. I’m going to pray you’re new antibiotic kicks in and boots the infection out once and for all. If I were there I would give you a big hug and take you shopping for a new hat.

    Although I must say I am very happy to hear anger in your writing tonight and not discouragement. I would much rather have you good and pissed off about what’s happening over down and out. Don’t give up and keep taking the next step. Try not to project too far into the future, just tell yourself you can handle what’s happening today and that’s all you have to worry about.

    Or better yet, just take your mind off of it all for while (give yourself a break) and maybe watch a funny movie. Wrap up with your family, a bowl of popcorn and (if possible) have yourself a good laugh. Sometimes laughter is just plain good medicine. I know it sounds lame… but it has worked as a great diversion for me from time to time and the real truth is and I’m sorry to say it, but it’s the best I’ve got tonight Peg.

    You’re in my heart and my prayers are all for you tonight, so keep the faith my lovely friend!

    Big hugs and kisses from Wisconsin!


  6. Hi sweet Peggy,

    I am so sorry you are sad. You have every right to be. You have been through so much. I appreciate your honesty. I also love your sense of humor. You are teaching all of us who follow your journey so much. With all you need to handle and manage in your day it is amazing to witness how you share your story. I look forward to the day when you truly enjoy and can taste food with no sores in your mouth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to cook for you then! I pray that fall brings you comfort, peace and abundant warmth. I love you, I care aboout you, I admire you, I want the best for you and thank you for helping me to be a better person.

    Love you,


  7. Pegs,

    Your blue eyes and big smile are all any of us see anyway.

    I love you,


  8. Peggy,
    I have been saying prayers for you ever since I heard the news. This past weekend Iheard you had a blog and I signed on and read every comment. You are so strong and you have a lot of angels looking out for you. No one should have to go thorough this, but your words and determination and humor will inspire others to keep on fighting as you do. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  9. Peggy, I love you man! or girl! I should say. I hope you are feeling better today after the weekend. Just to share, my daughter Sarah (my loquacious 7 year old) saw my friend Sally at the pool last week. Sally has breast cancer and her hair just started growing back in - lots of little silvery fuzz. Sally always wears red lipstick which both Molly and Sarah admire. Sarah saw Sally and said, Mrs. Cheek you look really beautiful today! Sally said it just made her day. I am also glad you are mad and hate cancer - good to go into the ring fighting. Love you lots, sending lots of angel prayers. Kirsten

  10. Dear Peggy,

    We hate cancer too because of what it does to the people we love. We are saying so many prayers for you and your family. Channel your anger into fighting this bastard and in the end our strength and prayers will prevail. We're with you all the way!

    Sarah and Sean

  11. Cancer Sucks! I'll second that one, but we will fight on and win! Strength comes from deep with in and I haven't met you yet, but I know you have it by the emails and posts I have read from you. GO to Hobby Lobby, buy a bunch of those cute and loud bandanas, wash em up and tie em on. Embrace it, show the world you have cancer, but cancer doesn't have you! I am fighting right by you my new friend, and know you are constantly in my prayers. I hope your port site is healing and a new one gets in soon. I have the same matching scars, had to have mine replaced last year as well. Hang in there today, and just take it a day at a time. Let your prayer warriors and angels help get you through today. We'll deal with tomorrow...tomorrow! Always thinking of you and hope to see you soon, Trish Simon